Honestly, at this moment, I am completely overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions: excitement, nervousness, homesickness and a whole lot of insecurities.
I am excited.
Like, super excited. Finally, after all those years of watching dozens of movies about the ‘university life’, this moment has finally come: moving into a new place, making new friends and most importantly, living that highly-anticipated ‘university life’ which everyone from high school has been talking about.
*Gosh.. I am already fired up just by writing this.
However, I am nervous at the same time.
To be honest, the idea of living in a completely new place with completely different people sounds a little nerve-wracking to me: How am I going to get used to this? What will my life be like? Am I going to make friends? Will I party all night long or be friends with the library?
I am already homesick although I haven’t even moved yet.
Looking around my room right at this moment, a lot of things that are here won’t be there in uni accommodation: there won’t be my super-comfy bed with a hole in the middle or the beautiful garden right by the windows. Oh, and there won’t be my older sister with me either - I will then have to pack my own lunch, close the windows at night and remember to call mom every weekend, by myself.
I am insecure. That’s common, right?
I am not cool enough; I speak broken English; I didn’t grow up in this country; I have social anxiety; people will think that I’m weird; etc.
It’s weird how I could feel all those emotions at the same time - does that make me even more weird?
Honestly, I don’t like this mixed-emotions feeling, at all.
I am only 18 years old - how am I supposed to deal with all of these?
Wait, no… I am ALREADY 18 years old, I should be fully prepared for this.
But… how come I’m not?
It’s okay… I guess.
It’s okay to not feel okay, sometimes.
I think the trick is to remind yourself that:
This is a big step into adulthood; this is the beginning of a whole new chapter.
Thus, it’s okay to feel overwhelmed.
As a matter of fact,
Live with it. Treasure this confusing, mixed-emotions feeling.
Because this feeling is what makes the whole ‘moving in to uni accommodation’ experience unique, and hopefully unforgettable.
You will do just fine.
I will do just fine :)
We will rock!
Let’s do this.
- Matthew Le.